Finding what you didn't know was lost...

Zuzu soaking up rays

With time to kill on a late Sunday afternoon, I did what I have lately forgotten to do - I roamed.  No map, no guide, no purpose other than to step out and see something new.  It didn't take long.  I stumbled upon it glistening in windlight settings of TOR Big Sun - a deserted sandbar that begged me to stay a while.  Late afternoon rays caressed my skin that I could almost feel tingle from a day spent in the sun, warm breezes flutter by, bringing with them the smell of salty waters and Mirjam singing Magic Waves Feat - jaded thoughts are forgotten and I sat and stared at the brilliant SL sun.  I'm glad I did, for without my lingering, I may have left uncovered this fact.....I had found what I didn't know had been lost.


For a guy like me who is prone to forgetfulness, having my head in the clouds most of the time, it shouldn't have surprised me that it was always likely that I would be stumbling through SL life unaware that I may have 'misplaced' certain things.  Yet out there on a sandbar of Las Arenas, I rediscovered some sense of 'lost spirit'.  No friends were on, no distractions, no need for words - just thoughts, reflections and a deserted beach.  I sometimes forget that my batteries can run low, my mind grows tired and slowly but surely the heart grows heavy and then.....the spirit can start to get that flat-ass feeling!

Zuzu all reflective and being an empty pinhead

Whichever life we spend our time in - we can all forget to give to ourselves and we just start to slowly drain the tank down to empty, forgetting to check for signs we are running on low.  Out on the sandbar, I checked the gauge and saw I was nearly on empty - yet just hanging, listening to the waves, the cool music and letting my head just empty of thoughts - I could feel the spirit get refilled.  I smiled.  I relaxed.  I could even feel my buttocks unclench, which given the company I keep, was a true sign that it was a needed experience!  The weekend in SL had been heavy with issues, none of which were mine but even seeing those you care for go through it can flatten the batteries!  I wondered if anyone else had noticed?  Have I become tired and worn out amongst my friends?  Have they sensed that I have been running on fumes lately or is this all just going on in my own lil pinhead?  Have I been giving the best of myself or just handing out what I had?!!  Hmmm.

Well I am not one to linger longer than is needed.  Zuzu found his mojo, just like Stella found her groove by hanging on Jamaican beaches!  OK, so I had to settle for a virtual beach but the effect was the same - I got my groove back, so I celebrated with my 'black cherries' dance which involves lots of writhing around, gyrating my hips and generally thrusting in every direction?!  It was during a particularly violent set of 'black cherry' hip thrusts that I started to feel what all beach goers dread - sandy crack syndrome!  Having that feeling of being rubbed down like an old heirloom chest of drawers between the ass cheeks does kind of ruin the groove.  I took myself into the warm ocean and discreetly flushed the offending area - I may have even done a number one while I was there!

Zuzu working out his black cherries!

So, as usual, there is absolutely NO point whatsoever to the things I write here - more just me letting my lips flap in the breeze and see what spills out.  But as I lounged on the sandbar it did make me think of the things that make me flat and the things that fill the tank - of those who drain me and those who refresh me.  Knowing the difference might be useful in the future.  First and foremost, My Hani is my SL sunshine - he shines without even knowing it.  Without him, SL would be a sunless wasteland for me.  My close group of friends too - they are my warm breezes blowing off the ocean, refreshing and cooling.  And salty waters?!  Well let's just say, I got that covered also - hear me?!

Some come to SL to build, others to explore, still others to live out fantasies of who they wish they could be perhaps!  For me - it's those that are willing to stay on my buddy list, those that are glad to have me for company, those that speak fondly of me in their profile picks - it is these people that make me come back for more.  I used to think friends were only those that you had met in the flesh - seems I was wrong!  So this blog is for those of you that fall into this group - I am gassed people, fully tanked, a loaded gun, a hung hamster (what the hell?!?!?) and am ready to head into another SL month with you all.....be afraid.....be very afraid!

Zuzu rules.....peace out!